I Guess this is All Part of Losing Someone You Love

For the past few months that he's really been gone, I've felt so empty. I can be happy, but I feel like it's only on the outside, and on the inside it's someone entirely different. It's someone who is lost and confused. Someone who isn't herself without her other half. I haven't felt like me since Brian took himself out of my life. I can smile, and I can laugh, but nothing I do feels right anymore knowing that he's not there. But something happened. Something hit me to finally start to let him go. But I can't say that I've fulfilled my emptiness. I felt whole with Brian, and now I find it difficult to remember him. I think less and less about him and the memories get more and more fade. This has never happened before. When Brian and I are not together, that's all I do is think about him, and my thoughts for him have always more deep than any. But I'm moving on and I can't take Brian with me. I've felt so alone without him, and now I don't even remember what it's like to be with him. I guess this is all part of losing someone you love.